For some reason every summer is crazy for me. For the past few years it seems like there is so much ‘change’ happening during the summer. Anyway, vacation is ~30 days away so I need to really get focused. As much as I hate it I think I must track and weigh everything - including my beloved wine 
At this point it really seems the only way to get this weight off. Typical me though. I lose a great deal of weight but never reach goal and stay there for years then I have another paradigm shift and lose some more then get stuck again.
I’m rambling. I’m tired. I need to focus on exercising and portion control / calorie counting. PERIOD.
Off for my walk …
Well is sure haven’t posted much lately. What a year this has been to say the least! I’ve been really tracking my calories and using Calorie King. I have decided to take a KISS — keep it simple stupid — approach. Calorie King sets a net calorie limit and you input your exercise and then you basically eat your calories that you burned through exercise. You wouldn’t think this would work but I’ve had great success with it this week. A few advantages — 1. It has gotten me to workout everyday this week! I actually utilizing Afterburn by Cosgrove. Seems good so far. 2. Forces me to track and stay on track. It’s Friday which I usually screw up so I’m hoping to have a mellow night and get to bed early.
Huge weekend. Removing our above ground pool and my 18 yr old daughter is coming up from Florida to live with us and go to college. Major changes a comin’. I have to get her room cleared out (it’s been a storage room since we bought the house) and get the house cleaned - ugh fun but hopefully I’ll burn a lot of calories 
I actually feel like i am losing fat doing this plan. I’m eating about 1500 calories and burning about 300 per day. I’ve been walking (with jogging ‘jags’) and superset resistance training 3x per week. I’m down to 140.5 on my old scale and 143.4 on my new scale. Trying to limit the carbs at night but not going nuts.
OMG .. best recipe for pork chops. Total success with my critical family .. Crockpot Pork Chops.
I have been a bit hungry but I guess that is par for the course. Losing fat isn’t suppose to be fun — especially the last 10 lbs!
Well I haven’t posted because I have been super duper busy. We redid my daughter’s bedroom and playroom. She had so much crap and we moved so much stuff. I think I have never painted this much in my life. The rooms look great. I’ll post pix later.
Onto weight .. bought a new scale because my is starting to have a lot of variance. Problem is that the new scale is 2 lbs higher than my old scale Oh well I guess I need to make the transition. It’s a cool Health-O-Meter scale that measures weight, body fat and hydration. This is so dorky but when I weight in the morning I have to write all these numbers down because I can’t remember the exact numbers so early in the morning. Horribly embarrassing so I hide my post-it notes in the bathroom.
Diet is going ok. Trying to watch portion control and carbs at night. 2 meals / no snacks / no white at night. Weekends are my usual struggle but I have to get on track because since my oldest daughter is coming to live with me to go to college and I recently found out her father (my ex-husband) is coming up to drop her off from Florida (we live in NJ). I haven’t seen him since the day of our divorce 15 yrs ago. Fun fun. I’d like to be back to 135 but at 144.5 today I doubt that will happen in 3 weeks.
So I have to really focus on exercise to get this flab under control. I feel so much more flabby lately and I know it’s because I haven’t been exercising. You know the drill .. exercise makes you look smaller even at a higher weight. I look bigger without exercising even though it doesn’t show on the scale.
Ok .. off for dinner. Pork chops (boneless) and salad. YUMMY
I blew it last night (Friday night). Ate too much (Kashi and south beach bar plus tortilla chips). I am focusing way too much on food — almost obsessing over it. And the funny thing is when I do eat I don’t even enjoy it because I feel guilty. That is messed up.
Quick post - I’m going to start posting daily my menu, exercise and weight. But my sister IM’d me a great idea (this is what she is doing to get out of the diet/binge cycle)
“trying not to eat alot - and eat healthy - but not saying no carbs- no protein juice fast etc”
~ Kelley
Wow March and April were rough months for me in all areas - financially, physically, emotionally. May is a new beginning! So with new beginnings comes a new plan I am trying my hardest to get back on the low carb wagon. I have been trying to eat carbs in moderation (~100 grams per day) and my hunger is out of control as are my cravings. My body just doesn’t process carbs well - even though I love them!
My plan is to spend the next 9 days doing an Atkinsish induction (20-30 net carbs) to help get rid of the cravings and hunger. Exercise - ugh. Last week I walked everyday (fast pace) for 45 minutes. This week I only went out 1 time. It’s been raining here in NJ so much. I am feeling very jiggly so I have to get back to lifting some weights. I’m starting New Rules of Lifting for Women again. I had done the first phase in November/December of this past year but for some reason I didn’t even start phase 2. I did notice a huge increase in strength. I am going to try to take the dreaded bathing suit picture and if I get the nerve up I’ll post it.
Thursday 4/30/09 Menu
B: Coffee
L: 1 slice whole wheat bread, scrambled egg with onions and cheese, 3 slices bacon
S: celery & ranch
D: chicken breast and salad with ranch and some cheese sprinkled in
I also had a few glasses of wine/seltzer
Red Robin Restaurant has free refills on french fries. That is not good for a carb addict like myself. That was my weekend. Extremes .. and I’m sick of them. I really do like low-carb results but I’m getting so sick of the ‘on’ ‘off’ attitude that I have when I virtually eliminate a macronutrient. I think that since I’m close to goal maybe I need to have more of a moderate approach. More of a moderate-carb plan. Zoneish 40-30-30. I just want to eat like a normal person and not binge anymore. I do very well over the week (mostly) then just go crazy on the weekends and I’m just plain ole tired of it.
I am teetering with the idea of having a more moderate diet, count calories/macros and get consistent with my workouts (cardio). It’s spring so walk/runs outside will come soon. Goodbye treadmill!!! I need to focus on weights more during the winter and cardio is primary during spring/summer.
Anyway .. those are my thoughts for the day
144.5 Oh I was BAAAADDDDD on Easter. My mother went to town - ham, mashed potatoes, spinach dip, baked apples, rolls, green beans and of course banana pudding. Plus I drank like a fish! I didn’t have the courage to get on the scale on Monday. I feel fat and bloated. Funny thing I woke up Sunday night dripping in sweat. That happens after I overeat.
Exercise. Seems like I am becoming very good at making excuses for not doing it. I’m making my plans too complicated. I need to get back to basics. It’s already Tuesday and I haven’t been to the gym even 1 day this week. My daughter is on Spring Break so I am sleeping late. Sleeping late means I don’t get to the gym. Not good. Focus this week - get to the gym and walk/run on the treadmill everyday for the rest of the week. Don’t worry about weights this week. I’ll start those next week. Just get back into a routine. I wish I could get my motivation back. I was so good last year. Working out and diet were my primary focus. Not so this year! How do I get my MOJO back????
I’ve joined Twitter and am having some fun with it! If you want to see my wonderful excuses for getting out of exercising and my various ramblings follow me on Twitter.
143 (+.5) Ugh I just wrote an entire post and lost it all due to damn Zoundry.
Good day yesterday but went to my sister’s for a few glasses of wine then proceeded to have my way with a bag of peppercorn potato chips from Aldi’s. Those are the best damn chips I have ever had. I was given the gift of only gaining .5 so I have to be good today and Sunday. Wish me luck!
Great article from T-Nation by Chad Waterbury. It explains why I read over and over that women don’t bulk but I sure bulk in my legs. Huge legs. Flat butt. That’s my curse and I married a “butt man”. Great. Starting on Monday but splitting it up over 4 days and doing my own cardio (C25K).
Off to finish my coffee and clean my house .. ugh. But then it’s date nite - yippee. I finally can spend some time with my husband. I believe Flight of the Conchords is on the agenda for tonight.
143.5 (-2) Well I haven’t been very good about posting everyday but things have been freaking crazy around here. Oh I miss my boring, uneventful life! Soon .. very soon .. it will be back. Working on rental properties, patching things up with my sister, working and dieting and exercising.
Went back to the gym this week with my sister since we have patched up our fight (YIPPEE). I really did miss the gym but I really can’t wait until the weather gets nicer and I can walk/run outside. Still trudging along with C25K. I really think running is more of a mental test than physical at this point for me. I have to focus my mind on not thinking about the time or the ‘pain’. I’m working on it by focusing on the music and how my feet feel - weird I know.
Diet isn’t going that well. I do ok during the week then totally f up over the weekend then I’m back to square one. I have to figure out a way to get over this. I have discovered that I lose so much better when I stay away from anything white. Even if I count the carbs the white stuff (bagels in particular) I just can’t lose. I am having 1 slice of whole wheat bread in the morning with an egg and thats it for grains. Now can I do it over the weekend?
Free days .. I lost a lot of weight last year while still allowing myself a free day on Saturdays. The secret was getting right back on track on Sundays - which I was able to do. I have figured out a plan. I want to end this month at 140 so no free days until I reach that #. Next month the goal is 135 (I might revise to 138) so no free days until I reach my goal weight.
146 (0) Well I actually survived the first day of induction and it wasn’t too bad. I even gave up my beloved wine It’s just a matter of routine I guess but I always do so much better during the week - come the weekend it is such a struggle for me! I have this underlying mentality that ‘I deserve it’ and then I spike back up to what I was the beginning of the previous week. Great for maintenance … not so great for losing. I just have to really plan plan plan for this weekend. It’s going to be a bit stressful too because one of the tenants are leaving our property so we have to go see the condition of the house and then realize all the work we have to do.
Exercise isn’t going well. I just can’t get back to go to the gym. Without my sister going with me I absolutely hate it. So I’ve decided to go back to Firm DVDs until the weather gets warmer. I’m such a wuss with exercise - I dread it then feel so much better afterwards. My plan is to wake up early tomorrow and exercise from 6am-7am. I am following Firm’s 90 day rotation but only for 6 weeks then I’m going to restart C25K once I can go outside. I’m also a wuss with the cold - cold and 6am just aren’t fun for me!
I did have a slice of whole grain toast in the morning with a scrambled egg. I really like that and I’m still able to keep my net carbs under 20 so I’m ok with that.
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